Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you

2007-08-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

Mmm. Why? Why isit so hard to let go? Why is it so hard for me to let go of past hurt, achievements, relationships? I mean, past hurt, I don't know how to release it. I need to meet the person face to face to settle this past hurt. How come it seems tt even meeting the person doesn't help? And.. What if... E person doesn't even wanna meet me? How do i let go? Is it possible for me to let go of past hurt jus by myself? I really don't know. Achievements? So what? I mean, Why am I holding on to these? Am I really that insecure? That i care so much about how people look at me that i NEED to hold on to these past achievements so I can be somebody to other people? Why can't I just let it go? Relationships. Why? Why do i keep chasing after relationships that are over? I mean, it is ALREADY OVER. you have NO MORE CHANCE. Why can't I just give up? Why? Can't I ever get a second chance?

K. Emo over. NOW... for e exciting thing. Evangelism. Wow. Evax has really become a part of me. I can't help but to evax, and conversations around me just start becoming directed towards Christ sooner or later. I just WANT people to know about this God, and to have a relationship with Him!! To me, success is not determined by the convert. Success is determined by the fact that I have planted a seed in this person's life, by sharing the gospel to him/her. The new testament has God-knows how many verses about sharing the good news, testifying to the Gospel (Check biblegateway.com, and search for gospel and u can see a hundred appear, of which at least like.. 30? is about sharing e gospel. mayB way more) I mean, im not being an ass here or what, but.. I know I'm in e NS group, but.. My burden goes beyond NS guys. my burden is for everyone. Young, Old, male, female, jew, indian, muslim, catholic, christians, I don't care. I just wanna share to everyone! And.. I do see many constraints which prevent me from sharing the gospel. I do NOT believe that anything can stop me though. The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? For it is for the sake of the gospel that I am in chains. Acts 20:24, so many verses! Nothing can stop me. This saturday, I'm gonna attempt another.. crazy stunt for Jesus. I feel that it is Spirit-led. For how, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent? Amen. I will go where You want me to go, even if it means bringing shame to myself, the risk of harm, I will go.

2007-08-15T06:45:00.000-07:00

Bah. Now i know why i don't update. Cos everytime sumthing pops up my screen would change and before i post my post is gone n i hafta re-type.

Anw, yup. haven't blogged for.. Woah.. 3 mths. tts long. K. shall update a LOT now.
Im 20!!!!!! hahaha. And this yr, no special big group stuff like e last, but still, i managed to spend my bday with 3 VIPs.

1) Apinun - Mmm.. We went to city hall and had dinner, at a steakhouse, and really had a fun time fellowshipping, with all his lame crap. Was actually sick on that day, had Diarrhoae (Not AFTER e meal. BEFORE.) So.. tt kinda hampered things, but really, this buddy.. thx for all e time spent together, e time u gave up for me, and.. all e advice and encouragements and affirmations. thx bud =)

2) Harry Lam - Mmm... We also went to city hall and had dinner AT A STEAK HOUSE. WOW. coincidence? haha. And.. Spent a great time talking about e future, what life would be like after he leaves, and how to cope without one another. Mushy eh? We ARE MUSHY PEOPLE. And.. how he's gonna help e church in US when he goes dere t study and all. Really can't wait to see him get his white chick in US.. Mmm.. but judging by his skin colour, mayB a black chick lah. A cool negro wif afro styled hair! Woo! U would be cool FOR ONCE. =p

3) Peng Chuan - We went to city hall and.. ITS NOT A STEAKHOUSE. we went to an italian restuarant instead, and.. Was great! except i didn't understand e menu! LOL. And.. Yeahh.. Talked about e old days, how we became buddies, e days spent shooting hoops and playing bridge at Holland V, and all. This guy just moved to tertiary army group, and.. he's.. growing (I think). Yeah. Haha. THIS NUT SPENT $100 on e meal, and bought another $50 shirt for me from G2000, and he still wants to buy books for me. HE'S NUTS. But thx. I really appreciate tt. Haha. But i want MORE TIME. my love lang is TIME.

and.. my bday was cool. Very. Totally. Took half day off and went to esplanade, and walked and talked, shared an ice cream and had a drink with God. (we really did share e ice cream!!) And.. Was great! Realli understood His heart more, and.. those few hours passed by like a few minutes. Okay. Here's the amazing part. As we were by e riverside, I looked up, and saw a RAINBOW. it wasn't raining, there's no reason for e rainbow, but yet it was there! As i turned around about to share to Him tt there's a rainbow (For a moment i forgot that He is omnipotent and CREATED THE RAINBOW) I heard Him tell me, "Happy Birthday Matthew" I WAS LIKE.. OH MY GOODNESS. Can u imagine the love i felt? I mean, like.. this gift is.. like.. money can't buy, in fact nothing could've made it happen except Him, and He gave me that as a present on my birthday!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

K. My wishes. Can share 2 right?
1) I want a heart that NEVER STOPS desiring after God. An undivided heart, a heart pumping with passion and desire for Him. E day my heart doesn't beat for Him, I'm better off dead.

2) Humility. I really pray for me to grow in humility in e upcoming yr. I'm a proud dude. Proud of my giftings and talents, and all my past achievements and all that. Aye. God can heal e broken hearted, comfort e contrite in spirit, but God OPPOSES THE PROUD. I can be anything, but I CANNOT BE PROUD.

God, thx 4 everythin.

2007-05-27T08:30:00.000-07:00

OKAY. IM BACK FROM KRABI and BANGKOK. WOO HOO.

lol. k. short n sweet. i hope.

day 1 -we arrived in Krabi at about night time, and.. we jus kinda browsed around, booked our tours and nothin much. realised the people i went on the trip wif are VERY spiritual. they actually pray for the room. If its wif my own church clique, i think e first thing we'll do is chiong for the food rather than t pray. oops. o ya. lesson learnt for the day: CHILLI IN THAILAND IS VERY HOT.

day 2 -Today we visited the 4 islands of Krabi. Its scenery is like super nice lah! we went by speedboat, and we did snorkelling! I learnt how t snorkel today, and its super fun! except tt it started t rain e moment i jumped into the sea. the waters got choppy, but it was still super nice wif all the fish flocking around you! o ya. i found nemo! lesson learnt for the day: If its raining, snorkel with lifejacket. Dun act strong no matter how macho you are.

day 3- Most ZB day. K. Apinun joined us today. Went sun tanning wif him. (yes. i know. black jokes) Erm.. A day which we really did nothing but chill. and thai massage. O YA. I DROVE A MOTOR BIKE. and i got into an accident. Lesson learnt: Krabi has really nothing to do at night. O yes. and Thailand has no dustbin.

day 4- Pipi islands! Its e most beautiful part of the islands. Its like.. the water is so clear that u can see fishes even though its deeper than 2m. o ya.Lesson learnt: Dun let people on the speedboat throw bread at u. one might get tangled up in your hair and.. the fish might be biting your hair.

tts krabi. and i gotta sleep. camp tmr. nite! bangkok update soon.

2007-05-13T09:19:00.000-07:00

O ya. A random thought.

If our christianity has cost us nothing, how much is it really worth?

2007-05-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

The truth of the Gospel works on so many levels. Though some will argue that God does not exist and man is the highest form in the universe, they will strive for a moral code. Challenge them to find a better moral code than that which is outlined in the New Testament. Ask them to compare it to the other systems of morals in the world: those of aethists, other religions, or political systems. You will have to know it well to spell it out, but have them compare the law of love to all other philosophical systems and challenge them to show you a better one. Ask them to show you a country where innovative breakthroughs emerge where christians are not in the majority. Discuss the list of great scientists and achievers of all time and see how many of them were christians or jews or at least believed in God's existence. Do the study yourself. Look at the top ten people of the last millennium and look at their beliefs and accomplishments. Newton, Gutenburg, Michelangelo, Luther, Washington, Martin Luther King Jr., Mother Teresa, and others you will find on any list of impoertant people of the last 1000 yrs. They all had trememndous faith in God. Look at nations that have tried to exist without God: The Soviet Union, China, Albania, Vietnam - Which of these has been as successful as those that built their foundations on the laws of the bible?

But then you will have to add that even though this is a great philosophy, it cannot work without its power source. Man has no motive to be "good" without gratitude to a Savior who granted they should not have to suffer for their own sins. Without the love of God in their hearts to motivate them to put the needs of others before themselves, they will ultimately act selfishly despite what philosophies they hold on to. The views of Marx and Lenin sound like they are a solid foundation for heaven on earth, but their applications have brought more hell than any other. What brought this about? When those in power saw that they could do whatever they liked and tried to force others into a mold of service to the state, selfishness took over and whenever convenient they began to reward their philosophies to justify their own selfish desires. To free ourselves from cultural restraints to rise to a higher and better system seems a great idea, but such cultural revolutions in the Orient have done little but bathe their countries in blood.

If you don't stand up for what ypu believe, who will? If you don't tell those in your world about the Truth, why should God send someone else to do it?

2007-05-09T09:23:00.000-07:00

Mmm. K. Shall have a short post b4 i sleep. k. my grandma is asking me t slp. nite.

2007-05-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

Im going back 2 camp tmr after such a LOONNNGGG mc. Well, been thinking. Everyone's been calling me crazy to cut short my mc t return t camp. Mmm. MayB i am crazy, but i know tt i'm doing the right thing. Right in God's sight. MayB this blog goes out t all e students and nsmen and working adults as well.

Many times i hear people complaining about school, studying, homework, exams, how they wish they can go army (For guys) Den in army, they either complain they have a lot to do or nothing to do (weird but, come on. you know its true) Den when they go out into the working world, they complain about their job, how they have no time for themselves and all. I think. Tts bs. Well, man ( myself included) always wish that things were better. But.. today as I was talking wif God, he reminded me of one teaching which I used t hear. God will not change your circumstance (most of e time), but He can change your character, and He can change the way you look at things. It is what made me decide not to Keng and go back t camp. I wanna go back, and I wanna learn how t be joyful in the midst of working. I wanna go back to live out a life worthy of carrying the name of Jesus. I wanna go back and share the love of God with my camp mates, my boss, the canteen auntie, I dno. Whoever I can. I mean, I never know. For all you know one day you might be in prison for e sake of e Gospel. And what you gonna do? You can't quit prison. You can't ORD from prison. You either gonna do nothing or do a lot of things. And den what? Start training yourself from there? YOU WON'T. You will just hold on t e same attitude and sooner or later YOU WILL BACKSLIDE. If thats the case, I don't think God will ever put you through tests which will gain you rewards for eternity, and how will you grow to be a shining light before all men? Unless you want to lead a mediocre life and just barely get into the Kingdom of Heaven, you gotta change your attitude now. NOW NOW NOW.

2007-04-29T07:03:00.000-07:00

Mmm. Someone asked me why i cry so much. I think its cos i have a lot t b thkful for.

Been having a couple of bad days a couple of days ago. Emotional turmoils, erm.. a lot lah. Physical tiredness, mentally unsound, emotionally on a roller coaster, spiritually distant from God. Really thank God for e sermon on Sat. During Alter call, God gave me 2 words. Erm.. dun really feel like saying it out here. But.. ppl who wanna know can ask me. yeapz. And.. one word from heaven can change eternity. wads more two.

Really dno wad 2 blog. k. erm. K. I'VE ONLY GOT ONE LIFE. I wanna give it to Jesus. and.. I seriously.. dun understand why ppl reject Him when.. He's like so good lah. I mean, He gives you a reason to live, He gives you life to the fullest that it can ever reach, He's the only one who will never leave you nor forsake you, He makes you prosper in all that you do, He changes you for the better, He always forgives you, He died for you, SO MUCH SO MUCH. Whats so hard 2 understand? I just don't get it. If there's one thing I don't understand, its this. Circumstances and stuff can be bad and down, but.. He ISN'T WAD. He has neva let me down know. and He has never failed 2 forgive me, to be there for me. ARGH. How i wish i could have shown them my life before and after. how much He has changed me. Seriously. I wanna help all these peeps 2 like see it for themselves, t experience it and I KNOW THAT UR LIFE WILL B MUCH BETTER WIF GOD. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW.

2007-04-29T06:55:00.000-07:00

Mmm. i like this song. its a cartoon theme song, and for peeps hu dno. i LURVE cartoons. eh.. The land before time one.

Don’t lose your way
With each passing day
You’ve come so far
Don’t throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We’ll dream about the sun
In the dark we’ll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i

2007-04-26T09:57:00.000-07:00

Mmm. IM SUPER EMO NOW. K. WAD HAPPENED WAS. I was jus listening 2 music, making myself emo, den I thought about.. er.. yesh. AND I BECAME REALLY EMO. I STARTED WORSHIPPING GOD and i nearly peaked le. den wad happened nxt my grandma brought out my old box of encouragement cards and asked what r those. OMG. And.. was jus readin tru em.

Mmm. How times have changed. haha. oh well.

2007-04-25T12:24:00.000-07:00

Mmm. Chelsea vs Liverpool now. Welllll.... i dun care who wins. I just hope more injuries occur. Or maybe they all get involved in a brawl which results in like 7 match bans for everyone. tt'll b good.

Was on e bus today, THINKING, not daydreaming, about soccer. What kind of player am I? Well.. I'm not particularly talented, not like Ronaldo and all his tricks, nor am I like a goal scorer like Rooney. And got me thinking about my secondary school football nickname (no. not ballpicker) Gattuso. K. For people who have no idea who or what Gattuso is, he's an italian defensive midfielder, and he plays for AC milan (ironic. was hoping for him to be injured longer.) Anyway they called me that becos like him, i'm a workhorse and well.. I'll do anything and everything to stop the attack of the opposition. (including sliding, using my body and everythin.)
Which got me thinking, why can't I be like a Ronaldo or a Rooney? I wanna grab the headlines as well..

Sounds familiar? (Eph 4:16) Mmm. Many times, we wished we could be playing other roles in church as well, don't we? Some want to be the leader, some just want to do nothing, etc etc etc. The list is endless. But.. Why don't we give thanks for our own roles? I mean, its.. an honour by itself to be playing in this team. If the coach gives you a role and you focus on it without trying to do something else, the whole team benefits. In the end, when the team wins, you get a medal too. If one keeps trying to do something other than the instructions of the coach, sooner or later, that player would get benched and the coach would just find someone to replace him. Thats just the same case in the kingdom. If you are constantly unfaithful with what God has given, do you really think that there is NO ONE ELSE IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD who can do what you're doing? There would be so many people wanting to take your place. Sometimes you might not get another chance. Gd example. Last night (i think) Ferguson used Ronaldo as a decoy, not allowing him to steal the limelight but to play as a decoy for Rooney. And.. He did. Newspapers said that he was not as outstanding as Kaka. But... SO?!? Man U won. and isn't tt more impt than being outstanding? I really need to grow even more in this mentality. But right now, I really want to thank you, lord, for allowing me the priviledge of serving in Your kingdom.

2007-04-24T12:58:00.000-07:00

Ayyeee. Kaka caused me to be spiritually down. Man U is down 2-1 at the moment. COME ON. CHANT AFTER ME. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED. K. GOD. PUNISH THEM FOR THEIR MATCH FIXING SCANDAL. LET JUSTICE PREVAIL.

Anyway, had a couple of great dates with God dese few days. I'm going back 2 camp soon, so.. wanted to.. spend time wif Him. Woo. *OMG. WAIT. SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT. ROONEY SCORED AT THE 59TH MINUTE. THERES HOPE.* K. back to the God part. Mmm.. *OMG. SO CLOSE* Past few days managed to spend time wif Him at my favourite places. Esplanade, followed by East Coast. Well.. I really really like nature and scenary. And it always gets me emo and mel. One thing which I really wanna do is to be able to see the sights of the world. I really wanna see God's marvellous wonders. In fact, Mmm.. I would love to be able to go outer space and like.. admire the world, universe and all. Ahhh. Dreams. K. One place which really makes me.. Happy are beaches. lol. Mmm. I think the soft sand on your feet is a great feeling and all, but what I like best is the view of the Sea and the Sky on the horizon. Just seeing that makes my day. One day, when i grow up (i mean im already grown up but still..) i wanna be able to go all over the world and be able to enjoy the sights, beaches, mountains, valleys, etc etc, wif my special one. (N dis time round I don't mean Jesus. I'm not THAT spiritual yet. He'll b there anyway)

OMG. JESUS APPEARED ON MY TV SCREEN WHEN THE BALL CROSSED THE LINE. ROONEY SCORES AGAIN! MAN U WIN. 3-2 WOO

2007-04-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

i just realised, e amount i think, i think i'm like.. a Extreme Melancholic? Actually. Im an extremist. y can't i be more balanced..?

Anyway, 2day i.. mmm.. overheard interesting stuff in e gym locker room. I mean, it was like dese few guys 2gether and they were bragging about their "conquests"... Over the opposite gender? Ayyeee.. Got me thinkin. and thinkin. and thinkin. Are e males these days really that big jerks? Which got me thinking of manhood, how its defined by the world and how its defined by God, and it got me thinking about myself, and where I stand. I'm definately against pre-marital sex (not like those JERKS in the locker room), but.. what about BGR? God suddenly dropped this bomb upon me. HMMMMMMMM. Tough question. Got me thinking lots, about the views of the church, peers around me, friends, and.. my stand is this.

Well.. I have yet to fully comprehend some views such as being financially stable before getting into a relationship etc etc. But I do have my own views why I do not get into one YET. Well..

I'm not ready. I do not know what I want to do with my life as of now, what God wants me to do for Him with my life. I'm still discovering. Heck. I don't even know what I want to work as. Can you imagine if me and my spouse have different life visions? She wants me to make lots of money but I want to give all my finances t God. Big mistake.

Well.. people do ask how do you know if she's not the one? Well.. how do you know if she IS? even if she is, if the time is not ready, I could be spoiling something God has planned. God has planned for us to be together only after I have overcome and grown in this area of me life, but i chiong into the relationship now. She sees my weak flaw, and she is unable to accept it, we break-up, and the relationship might never be the same again. She might decide that it shuld be another guy and change target. Siao liao. Might as well wait a bit. (anyway i'm not that far off le. Can sense it. muahaha)

Choosing between the better and the best. Mmm.. according to God, HOW ON EARTH CAN IT BE THE BEST IF A LEADER SAYS NO?

Lastly, I.. do not want to hurt people. Getting into a bgr with the wrong person (how high is the chance?) means breaking up, and breaking up means hurting someone. and.. if i were 2 get in2 one as of now, i would be hurting more than just that someone. I would be hurting the people who believe in me to make the right decision.I would be hurting my buddies, who have trusted me so so so much. I would be hurting the guy who has never failed to forgive me no matter how many times i've done wrong to him, the guy who loved me so much he died for me, the guy who has never left me nor forsaken me. I.. just can't bring myself to do it. I've done it once. I won't do it again.

Mmm. Yup. BUT that doesn't mean im anti-bgr. heh heh heh. people who know me shuld know me well enough. In fact, I enjoy talking (i'm also a SUPER SANGUINE) and making friends. I don't think theres anything wrong with that. (Just don't.. say wrong thing 2 wrong people. another big mistake.) Dun need 2 make a decision now lah. Keep ur eyes open. (if anybody every reads dis blog and wants to know hu caught my eye, LOL. FORGEDDIT.)

2007-04-21T11:32:00.000-07:00

k. i realised.. Poly ppl also.. talk a lot of crap. Jus reached home.. and..

MY WORLD JUST CRASHED. OMGOMG. MAN UTD DREW WIF BORO. WAD IS DIS!?!??!?!? %$#^@!%$!@*$*^&^$&*!&$#&!%$&*(&$(&*(!&(^&!

Dear Father in heaven, I pray that Chelsea would not gain victory tmr. Mmm. Sounds wrong. k. I pray that Chelsea's opponents will win tmr. tts better. I pray tt something will happen to Drogba and Terry, and that this in turn will show them that You are real and they need you in their lives. Please show them that it is not possible for them to gain victory everytime without You in their lives, and that it will transform them (especially Drogba. DIVER. CHEAT)

K. the above is not meant to be read for people who dunno me and are easily stumbled.

Mmm. Wonder... What happens if one day.. Rooney and Ronaldo becomes my sheep.. They're my age after all. Maybe I'll challenge them to go full time. Quit their job, their cca, and become pastors and preach in Portugal and England. Mmm. Nah.. I'd rather take care of other clubs. DEN DEFINATELY CHALLENGE THEM TO QUIT.

2007-04-21T07:58:00.000-07:00

lol. i sumhow know harry would hate me for blogging this, but.. Well.. Sumthing I realised.. Your best friend becoming your leader is.. really not easy to adapt. Especially for an egoistic, prideful guy like me. Mmm.. Know it sounds cliche with all the its okay, i will submit, nothing will come between our friendship, etc etc.. But.. there are problems beyond just the surface.

There are many things which.. you can't share to your buddy, like ministry.. (can you imagine if he shares to you about his group, which is you and suddenly you hear a lot of things you're not supposed 2 hear and you die in shock?) What about personal life? Mmm.. For some, personal life IS ministry. all the problems would concern their group, their people.

Yet on the other hand, when ur bud corrects you, sometimes.. u really wonder if he's talking to you as a leader or as a buddy. Well.. to some people, there's no difference but to others there is. Different styles of leadership I guess. Some people are different as a leader and as a friend. *shrug*

And there's a lot more.. Sometimes you wonder if he's treating you well because u're under him, or because u guys are really buddies. I for one really do not want someone to treat me better because i'm in that person's group. That makes me feel so... used?

Mmm.. I do think about such issues man. But thank God. I have a.. super-duper gd best friend. Thanks for.. just treating me as a buddy, sharing with me and all, not doing special things, and just being who we were in the past. For people who face the same problem, really turn t Harry as your role model (the ldr part. for egoistic people UNDER your best friend, turn t God. Only HE CAN HELP. muahaha) Thanx bud. We can overcome the world together. =)

tata.~ Gonna go Sam's hse t watch e Man U match.

2007-04-20T09:21:00.000-07:00

Friends and Cliques. Mmm.. Been looking back at e past few weeks, especially after LJ Yao left youth, have been feelin kinda.. lost? and.. it led t me thinking abt my own identity, and my group of friends. Seeing how JYs buddies still go out with him and all, really makes me think about myself. Im.. everywhere shallow but nowhere deep. I have friends everywhere, (and i mean EVERYWHERE) but.. how many close friends do i actually have?

Most of my close friends from AC, well.. we're still in contact, but.. we're no longer as close. Ever since i decided upon Jesus as my Lord, my life vision changed, and people with differing visions can only have a limited closeness. In CJ, i made a mess of my life. I gave up everything just for my ministry, joined track for that sole purpose, everyday did not have time to go out with my classmates (meet sheep. i had.. 12?) and.. i think.. I seriously do not have a single friendship tt.. lasted. Sadly. Den i gave up everything i had, the most lasting relationships wif my sheep for.. mmm. im getting depressed blogging. k. at least got.. light at e end of e tunnel.

1) Apinun - My gay buddy.
2) Harry - Erm.. gay buddy part 2?
3) Jesus - Nuff said.

Mmm. Whenever im depressed, i think about these 3 jokers in my life and.. how t carry on being depressed with them around?

2007-04-20T09:13:00.000-07:00

Yeesh. dunno how manieth time im remaking a blog. ayyeee. neva had e discipline t update it anw. Oh well. Dis time round if i can't maintain it, I'll get my buddy to help me maintain.

Mmm.. My leg is.. finally out of a cast! The scars are like.. Soooo cool. Ahh. But seriously, can't wait to be able to walk normally, dance, run, everything. My legs r like so impt to me.

Which leads me t think back.. Since young, i really hated being looked down on, based on my family and all, and.. This pair of legs have been.. instrumental in my achievements. Be it running, pole vaulting, army, dancing, soccer, etc etc, my legs have always been.. involved. Ppl who know me know im crazy abt sports.. But what happens if one day I lose my legs for the sake of the gospel? Gahhh... I shudder t think.